grey world ;

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

BERNICE GOH IS DAMN FUNNY :) idk how she got into 314. LOUSY LOUSY ): she called me stupid ): how. break my heart eh D:

'fishers' WOOO :D should i put it on facebook :)

♥ 8:54 PM

Yes we made it through. Ah ): Orientation will be pretty screwed. I'm damn stressed. Oh, and class gathering totally screwed up it's cancelled :) Because some people all very sian very sian. Then go marina square also quite boring, yes i know, but i dont know where else can we go already. It's really that tough to keep the class together if you guys didn't know. You guys should try it out one day. I really wasted my sms-es, call times and saliva trying to get people to come. And it always fails. Some people somemore give me attitude. Xinhui said she was trying to act cool, right. That fcuked up attitude. I don't care i don't bother. Whatever. Don't want come then don't come lah. Like as if you go to that school then will become like princess or whatever. Don't want come then don't come. This is like seriously the first time me and xinhui totally gave up on our class. It was not really bonded to start with, now we don't even feel like going back to rulang. I think this should be the worse already bah.

Holidays are plain bad and it's getting worse and worse. Montage was just done and i'm feeling freaking sleepy yet i can't go to bed. I've had a splitting headache since 10 plus and till now i'm still on the computer. Oh yes i'm seriously trying to kill myself. My stomach hurts and i've got diarrhea. Woo :) Ah lousy shitxzxz. Our montage is damn screwed, you guys know why? Because it's done by me it's so freaking ugly and music is not even working ): My music ): ): Ah. Sec 1 orientation proposals. Gah. Netball exhibition, oh bla. Liyi's feeling worse now i guess. She's been out the entire day and she has a match tomorrow, as in school team has a match. Jiayou jiayou :)

I went to pasir ris today. Kinda bored and rushed out my essay if not i will be too lazy to do it. I cant believe that school is reopening next week. I refuse to believe it. I dont want a new class. I want my 205 ): I'm living in the world of my own, when i'm still in sec 2. Oh i want my 205 i want my 205. Sec 3 life will be pretty screwed i guess, in addition there is sec 1 orientation. I bet i wont even be able to catch up with work. Uh gah. My mum's so going to nag at me again and again. Holidays suck. It just passed so quickly i didn't even feel like it was the holidays. And things are going to start all over again. I just want my beauty sleep which i have been deprived of for the entire month. I'm going to have panda eyes really soon.

beauty sleep . so near yet so far

♥ 12:12 AM

Sunday, December 27, 2009

It ain't hurting. You're still breathing. Hang in there, for us, for those you love.

It's going to be over, like how mine was. Hang in there. Because it's going to be worth it.

:) Sacrifices have to be made, but you will last through it.

I'll last through it i'll last through it i'll last through it.

So will you .

♥ 9:04 PM

I'm scared i'm scared ): I don't know why am i scared. ): Jingwen's scared too. ): Let's jiayou together. But i bet you, i'll be last. My stamina can't last ):

Aw dammit.

♥ 9:01 PM

Saturday, December 26, 2009

I'm pissed very pissed. I agree on what liyi said, the school never ever gives us a break. They just strangle us as though we are slaves and holidays are never ever known as holidays. So what if there's no school? Isn't everything still as bad as it is? I really wonder when will our dear school give us some space to breathe, some time to relax. I really wish i didn't enter this school, but yet sometimes i wonder what will I be if i didn't enter this school, if i didn't meet some people, if i didn't have these friends. And all these will be enough to be reasons to make school life happy, wonderful and fulfilling. I sound kinda stupid. How can school life ever be nice and fulfilling? That's just yet something i can't understand.

This stupid girl here is missing school life. I don't know how is school life going to be in sec 3, but definitely if i were in sec 2, i'd rather be in school. Like probably how all of us feel, we miss 205. we really really miss 205. How long can this last? Forever perhaps. I'm missing them already. I'm afraid of training. I'm afraid of Monday. I've got checkup and I hope it's in the morning . I'm scared i'm terrified. I really wonder how liyi has this very very magical feeling that i can always tell her anything, that i'm always afraid to tell so many other people. Yes i admit i'm close to my teammates, but sometimes i just can't open my mouth to tell them. I don't know if i'm just trying to put on a strong front and hide away that weak self.

Liyi oh liyi, you are always there for me, telling me to jiayou. you avril oon jiayou too okay! And yes it's true, there's nothing else i know i can do but to say jiayou and keep being by your sides to cheer you guys on. The whole team will cheer you guys on, that's for sure. That's what makes a real, true team. And because of that we're nynb. I don't know how i'm going to last. I don't know if i can. But i must.

it was once a promise, now a must.

♥ 9:45 PM

Friday, December 25, 2009

I know i'm going to last it through,

And that's all that matters.

♥ 11:52 AM

Thursday, December 24, 2009

I hope it won't be intervals. My stamina's dying.

I realised that wishes never come true

♥ 9:19 PM