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Saturday, January 30, 2010

TO HELL WITH BLOGGER :)

IM ON LIVEJOURNAL!

zennyxd.livejournal.com

a lousy name i know, -.- but cant change alr ):

suckkkkyyyy. and im lazy to recreate.

bear with it :)

♥ 11:38 PM

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

okay i seriously think i'm pissed.

fuccccccccccccccccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk ,

10 times more will probably make me feel better.

i'm getting moodswings idk why.

there's just so many things going on in my mind.

i just wish i ain't in the hospital i just wish everything will be fine.

ah shit i'm so tired.

whatever,

so what if i've got a fked up attitude.

so do you.

♥ 8:38 PM

Saturday, January 23, 2010

there's something wrong with my shoulder ah ): there's something wrong with my mood. i'm having moodswings o_o

chenliyi chenliyi, jiayou hao ma ): chenchuen chenchuen, jiayou hao ma ): don't give it all up now. my heart really hurts when i read liyi's blog everytime, i smile whenever i see her being so hyper and stuff, but when her posts go really emo, sometimes i just don't know what i can do to make her feel better.

jiayou chenliyi, like what jiaen told you, 不要放弃 . :)

there's just some things you don't know, yet. but there's others who are hanging onto the cliff just like you, but yet they won't ever give up till they fall off. no matter how tired they are, they'll hang on. you must too. :)

remember why you joined nynb, it's the journey you'll never forget. b div 10, this is your last chance with b div 10 jiayou.

i will bring my camera everyday and snap pictures of all our memories. like what i say, it's all going to be enough to last. you'll cry when you see these pictures next time, but you'll smile, for now.

all the smiles, so true. everything will seem all worth it.

we'll have a team outing soon :) for the match on monday, jiayou school team. 你们一定行! :) your journey won't end here it won't it won't. it's a promise, to yourself, to the team. :) jiayou!

ahnow i suddenly realised that everything seems so fake, like everything. not netball. but just everything else. i just want everything to end here, and pull off your smiling face when you're probably cursing me deep down in your heart.

i don't know how am i going to bring myself to hate you, but i will. bcos you've hurt me for more than you'll ever imagine.

i wanna laugh wanna laugh.

♥ 10:16 PM

Friday, January 22, 2010

well well. training yesterday was pretty slack. well, we did PT and we did everything i told jingwen we were going to do. well, other than the 2.4 run since it was like raining heavily. so we ran inside the school.

the team was best :) 5 people training and peizhen came late. our team ran with 4 people. best best :) haha shihui liyi chuan hoon all ask 你们只有几个人而已阿? we looked freaking idiotic. 4 people doing PT. -.-

haha runs oh runs, 15 minutes around school yesterday i was kinda panting at 5 minutes but i was glad i finished the run. yunting still had the 'i'm not tired' look on her face ): her stamina is like damn zai ): i want! haha, i think our pace was like not very fast i guess. but we ran finish 15 minutes :) and 1 second! LOL!

today we stayed back wee :D finally i stayed back with them, i didnt stay back with them for a lot of times alr ): damn sad. haha but we played ABC and badminton.

penguin and tricia is damn zai at badminton, uhhum avril :) LOL. haha me yunting xiuyi quite screwed also lah, it's kind of a training abs session we kept laughing at laughing. yunting's three pointer is damn zai. don't need aim one leh ): she so skinny got so much strength. first try go in alr -.- xiuyi we epic phail ~

we had our first THREE-OH-SIX class breakfast. was okay i guess. haha just that i was a super lousy assistant monitress (sorry!) and kept running around with liyi and avril to find shihui joy michelle and ziwei.

avril avril de ziwei. LOL :) and we took team pictures :) well, not entire team though ): the team pictures are damn nice damn nice :) but the first picture was awkward okay. my hand was at a awkward spot of liyi's body x_x

ah i really miss those days we stayed back as a team. we had fun today bitching about a certain somebody :) right right! stickytape sucks lah hahah :) i don't know why some people thinks she's so nice. we beg to differ. :)

open your eyes big big and look how she really is. you won't be able to stand her very soon. -.- and please, stop trying to ruin relationships and to be a stickytape, sticking to _______ .

it's all enough okay. stop calling us names too, because don't forget, you were the one who started it.

i shan't flood my mind with this stupid bitch, but i'll think of the happy memories our TEAM had. :) because we're a TEAM.

that's a very simple reason why i love my team. yet this reason is just long enough to make all of us last.

we're going to have a long long way to go. avril liyi chengzhu. don't give up just yet, because there's still a long way to go. b div 10, b div 11. jiayou :) we're going to make it through just fine. just fine. :) we'll always be here no matter how things are going to be.

like how you're going to be there for joey, liyi. joey, i know you won't ever see this but jiayou for basketball :) i know it's really saddening and stuff, we've been through it before.

buck up :) i want to see the cheerful joey again.

my dearest liyi and chuen, jiayou :) i'll be cheering for yall deep down in my hearts even if i'm not there. because you guys are worth the love.

jiayou jiayou jiayou.

♥ 8:59 PM

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

2.4 may just be a run, but to me it's a terrifying run. my stamina wasn't well. now it deproved like shit. ): i gonna do something to get it back, at least not as lousy. ah 2.4 oh 2.4 i guess i'll be the last. but my aim's not to overtake anyone. but just to finish it.

because by finishing it, i know i've done it. i won't want to give it up halfway like how i always used to. i'll hold everything back, and complete the run. jiayou jiayou jiayou. tomorrow's training there's only me tricia yunting xiuyi esther and peizhen. and jingwen put me in charge. wow o.o tomorrow's training going to be screwed ): idk what to do.

i'm scared of 2.4. i wonder when will i stop being afraid ):

♥ 8:31 PM

Monday, January 18, 2010

前面的路可能很难走，很暗

但不要怕

不怕的人才会有路走

希望等待着你

加油

♥ 8:18 PM

thank you thank you for being there. you've got no idea how much it meant.

school team yall did a good job today, but we all know it's not your best. jiayou :) you guys can definitely do much better than this. prove it. jiayou jiayou. top your grouping and go on. 39-2. probably not satisfactory for ms lin. but still, jiayou. today was pretty -_- boring. i managed to skip math and boring chinese though. i dumped qin on her own facing math. aw sorry (:

ah 2.4 i'm afraid. but what's the use. if my timing deproves i'm going to kill myself. ): thankyou tricia, for always being there, saying we're a team. and no matter what, we go through it together. carnival oh carnival, so far yet so near. ah thankyou recre team.

what's the point of going to school i once wondered. i know the answer now. it's for the people i want to see smiling when i go to school everyday. it's to see my teammates smiles. see qin's retarded look. see avril's retarded face staring at uhhum class from the window. that's all that matters, and that's all that kept me going for the past 2 years, and will keep me going for the next 2 years. :) c'mon, you're only halfway through.

it's my team it's my team it's my team.

♥ 6:44 PM